first day

this post is going to be a bit of a mish mash, i have a lot of things that i want to talk about so i just want to get it all down! i feel like i've done like no good posts recently, but i've just had so much on.

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a level results

last thursday (as i imagine a lot of you will know!) was a level results day, a pretty scary day! i wasn't actually that nervous until the night before & the morning of the actual day, mainly because i knew i had a guaranteed place on my art foundation course so i didn't need specific grades to get into a university. most of my friends got what they needed (and very proud of them i am! yoda alert), but unfortunately some didn't so i have my fingers crossed that they sort it out! i was very (pleasantly!) surprised by my results, so surprised in fact i didn't believe my friend who pointed out which were my overall grades in the very confusing list we were given! i got an A in spanish, and A*s in art, english literature & general studies, which i am really very very pleased with!

one of the teachers asked me what my results were, & then led me off to go & get my picture taken for the paper. this was pretty weird, & i didn't actually register what was going on until i'd left, the next day my picture was on the front cover of a local paper, cringe.

awkward left arm, good god.

i felt fine about this, until i started seeing snarky posts on twitter about how according to the front page of newspapers, the only people who do well in their a levels are "blonde twins and pretty girls in low cut tops" & people starting posting about this tumblr. then i started to get a weird feeling about how there was only one boy in the photo with five girls, and how the photographers had us stood above themselves on raised steps. i started thinking about a passage in caitlin moran's book about modern sexism, where she talks about not even realising you've been subject to sexism until you start to think it over alone.

i started to get really annoyed with myself that this didn't occur to me, and that i should've stepped back & said no to the photgraphs, but then i read this article, which was really interesting & opened my eyes to the other side of the feminist debate.

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college

i've been totally swamped with work for the summer project for college over the last few days, it's been getting me down a bit because there's just so much! today was my first day, and we're the first course in school because everyone else starts in september. i was a bit gutted about cutting my summer short by about two weeks at first, but now i'm there i think it'll be much better to get to know my way around before it gets really busy!

my passport photo for the college records.

this first day was a bit weird because we didn't really do anything except finish enrolling & get talked at constantly about THE IMPORTANCE OF HARDWORK and TAKING RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR OWN LEARNING, which was all a bit draining! the hours are 9 to 4, we get tuesdays off for home study & have wednesday afternoons completely free, which is pretty great! i am really looking forward to the course now, my first rotation is fine art and we're going to learn a little more about our project brief tomorrow.

my brand-spanking-new college id card, which we have to wear "at all times while on campus", wahey.

i was a bit gutted that the three other people that i know are all in one class together, and i'm in one on my own, but it's actually alright because there are a few nice people in my class that i'm getting to know.

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anyway, that's it for now! i'm going to try & post at the weekend about my holiday, & about some new jewellery i'm putting up on the site (which i'm off to make now!), but i'll see how the work goes!